Friday, August 10, 2012

Ah, Love...



Realizing that I could not go on without you
hit me like a brick—
I love you and that’s all that matters!!!










Tuesday, August 7, 2012

If


If he discarded her the first chance he got; then he never truly loved her...

If he loved her as we all think he did; then why do we worry so?

Monday, August 6, 2012

I REMEMBER...



How easily they’ve turned 
their back on you…
How quickly they’ve judged you…
How hastily they’ve trampled you down…
How fast they have forgotten…
What did you do to them? 
Why is there so much hatred? 
Why are they condemning you so? 
I am but a mere fan…
I am but one tiny voice…
But I am still here…for you!
One mistake did not make me forget--
The good I saw in you…
The love and passion you have shown him…
The words you have spoken from the heart…
Words that inspired me…
The smile that made me smile…
Your work… Your successes…
Everything I saw that endeared you to me...
Even the tiny mishaps here & there...
And it may not mean anything to you,
But know this:
I never stopped believing in you...
Never stopped loving you...





Sunday, August 5, 2012

WE DON'T KNOW A THING...


Yesterday, I’ve shared with two close friends about this suspicion (or theory if you must) that my sister presented to me.  It’s simple; yet, it made sense.  She isn’t a fan.  Yes, she read the books.  She wasn’t impressed.  It just didn’t do anything to her and so she never watched the movies.  She, though, knows about my love for Rob and Kristen and anything Twilight; but mostly, my love for Rob and Kristen.  She said that I love Twilight because of Rob and Kristen; and not the other way around.  She’s right.  Very right.

Of course, we, devoted Rob and Kristen followers, have plenty of discussion about this unfortunate event on Twitter and in private.  We all have our speculations/theory.  Yes.  Speculations.  Nothing more than that.  Not one of us knew of the truth.  Not even the tabloids.  We based our opinions on the stories fed to us by tabloids who are reaping $$$ out of this... And of each other's take on this issue.  Somehow, we're influenced by someone else's opinion... 

My sister was so patient during the first week of this heartbreaking event. I poured out my “soul” to her… told her what was going on… how my heart was breaking… who tweeted; what was said; what was happening… The U-Haul and all…

Anyway—

At 10am yesterday, she called me and said, “Get ready, we’re picking you up; we’re going shopping.”

I said I was not up to it. 

She said, “Freakin’ turn your computer off and log off from twitter. You’re nuts!”

I was actually on Twitter. So yeah…

Then she said:  “This is what I know about this shit.  It happened on the 17th; then your Rob and Kristen were out and about on the 19th, lovey-dovey and all; and again that Sunday at this award show… Then Monday came, the news broke; photos were released.  Where were Rob and Kristen?  No one knew, really.  Then, there’s this supposedly statements from her and that old guy she allegedly cheated with.  There was no follow up. No one spoke of it.  Neither camps did.

Tabloids feasted of this issue. Writing stories that their source – which I think was their imagination— shared with them; that other tabloids pick up; then a blogger picks up and blogs about it — that innocent & simple minded people interpret as the truth…

But where are Rob and Kristen in all of this, Ofie?  Where's their family?  Where are their people?  Where are their friends?  They are quiet.  Why?  Because there was no issue.  There was nothing.  NOTHING!  They knew the truth.  They knew what happened.  I bet that Rob already knew everything from the very start.  From when this old, unscrupulous guy started giving her attention.  I bet that your Kristen told her Rob everything.  When I say everything, I meant, what really took place; from the beginning of time, to how those pictures were taken; what was really there than what those photo-shopped looking photos want to convey.  

So, from when the news broke to this day; everything you heard, you read is just that.  SPECULATION. OPINION. THEIR CONCLUSION. THEIR TWISTED INTERPRETATION... AND NOT THE TRUTH. The U-haul didn’t mean anything.  They both have gazillion of dollars.  I would leave my home too if vultures start camping in my frontyard! You said both are very private people; both level-headed.  Why do all this when the issue is hot; when all eyes are on you? (I thought of this too, by the way; and even twitted about it). Again. NO ONE KNOWS BUT THEM.  

Your Rob and Kristen are okay.  They are probably somewhere, having a great vacay.  

You want more?  Here's my take on this and it is not the truth:  If, for example there's a pinch of truth on this cheating thing... You know what I think?  She is young. She is vulnerable.  I think he is her life.  I think she loves him way too much.  I think she wants to keep "it" permanent.  I think she wants marriage.  I think she wants more from this relationship than he does.  I think he's not ready to settle down but loves her very, very deeply. I think that made her insecure.  She talks about him and mentions him as his boyfriend.  He never did mention her in his interviews as his girlfriend.  You see him screwing women on films.  Going out to parties, meeting girls while you are away; although you know he was going there and meeting friends.  These are just films.  These are just parties.  Kristen doesn't want to act out her jealousy because she's supposed to be very secure, a strong woman.  She of all people should know that sex in films are just that... But jealousy is an evil thing.  Jealousy eats your up.  Jealousy clouds your judgement.  Add the insecurity.  Add that pig who probably brain-washed her... Probably feeding her vulnerable heart and self that Rob was unfaithful to her... Then we have a poor girl who was very, very vulnerable... And voila!

But I think it's the former.

So until your Rob and Kristen come out and speak from their hearts, get on with your fucking life!

So, get up. Shower. Get dressed.  We’re going shopping!”

And we did!


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I want to thank my friends who have lifted me up during the first week of this heartbreaking event; and who continue to be there... 
Tanya, you are a true friend.  
Gillian, thank you for welcoming me with open arms.
To all my FilFam - 
Sincerest thanks to all who didn't condemn, didn't hate...
Who, instead, lifted the other so we could all move on...
So we could all be positive...
So we could hope again...
As HOPE makes us stronger...